Cowardice and Greener Grasses

Why can’t I scrap my worldly possessions, break my relational ties, and set off on foot around the globe to discover god, myself, and internal peace?  No one could stop me if I decided I wanted to break camp.  So I must be the one standing in the way of myself.  Why would I do that when nothing sounds better than chucking my stresses?  Cowardice. 

I fear disappointing others.  I fear the unknown.  I fear that I won’t like me once I find me, or that there isn’t a god to discover, or that internal peace is really just loneliness.  I fear jumping for a dream because I might fall off the ledge.  What if the un-materialistic life is not what I want once I get it?  What if I have to crawl back to my relations to beg for a small part of my life back?  Maybe we’re brainwashed by that “grass is always greener” saying to keep us from doing what we really want to do.  That fucking phrase halts dreams.   -antiwasp

Filed under: Character, Culture, Religion, Self Actualization, Wisdom

Motivation Insufficiency Dilemma

I have a motivation insufficiency dilemma.  I’d imagine that others do too, maybe more than mine.  I have ability . . . not for everything, but for most things.  I can tell because I manage people that are older than me, and I’ve published numerous articles in magazines and newspapers.  But I don’t think everyone has ability.  My ultimate thirty-second test of a person’s intellectual ability is their writing.  I might be lazy, but even in my languor I can’t help but write well when I muster the strength to put my thoughts on paper. 

Back to motivation:  I wasn’t always lazy.  I remember a time when I couldn’t wait for the workday to end because I wanted to unearth an exhilarating time at somewhere-other-than-home.  Now I can’t wait for the couch.  I think my motivation will continue to dwindle as I age.  So, I’ll face the choice of doing several things poorly with what motivation I have, or doing a very few things really well.  I expect it’ll be situation dependent on which I choose.

But, maybe I’m having a difficult time with motivation because my children are young and active, I’m still drudging toward the master’s degree, and I work full-time-and-a-half.  The multiple stressors probably drain the energy from me.

So, maybe I’ll have more energy in the future . . . maybe less.  I know this – it needs to be more.  This is no way to live.  This is more struggle than happiness.  -antiwasp

Filed under: Character, Self Actualization, Wisdom

Conservatives Have Retard Holiness

Conservative means retarded.  It really means that a person is opposed to change and they want to retain the current conditions.  Liberal, on the other hand, means a person wants change.  Life is change, things are continuously growing, the world is always turning and revealing new truths . . . how can we conceivably continue to be conservative without one day becoming like the Middle East where it seems the governments have trapped the people in seventh century life styles?  We have to grow with the world and adapt our policies to fit current culture or government will become irrelevant and oppressive to the people. 

Why the-fuck are people afraid of the liberal label?  Many people will openly admit they are a Democrat, but shrug off the idea that they are liberal. What’s so wrong with change?  With saying that we aren’t completely happy with the way things are today and that we would like to do something about it?  It seems like a cool idea to me.

Why are conservatives so comparatively proud of being conservative?  Do they think that not caring about other people’s poor economic state makes them Holier?  Do they think their war on women’s rights brings them closer to God?  What about conservative xenophobia and hatred of Muslims and Gays?  Does God applaud their tirades against these groups?  -antiwasp

Filed under: Character, Culture, Politics